This dark pink line revealed itself on March 11. We've been wanting a second child and trying for quite awhile, so it's strange that when I get what I want I delve into denial rather than excitement. I think I get afraid to get my hopes up and to truly rejoice. I'm so self trained to temper my happy emotions so I can handle any disappointments that may occur. Makes me think I'm seriously a glass half empty on this one. I've slowly revealed the news to some close friends and of course family, so its becoming quite real and more exciting every day. Of course posting it on the web, well now the cats out of the bag eh?!

Around March 20th the nauseating hormonal sickness (which I'd forgotten about) kicked in. I've spent most nights since then flat on the couch moaning, trying to sleep, and lucky if I find anything palatable. Fortunately, as much as I feel disgustingly sick, bloated and tired — I haven't thrown up but I sure feel like it could happen. I remember now that I was exactly this way when pregnant with Max. Isn't it interesting how the mind and body work? Until now I had totally repressed how bad morning sickness felt. It's awful and often unrelenting and has absolutely nothing to do with morning. Some nights I wake up at 2 am and lie there feeling horribly sick and can't sleep for a few hours. Fun eh?!

So now you know why my blog has been so silent and why my productivity has become nil. I hope after the first trimester I'll feel fabulous and pick up my knitting needles and blogging desire.

Here's the image of the baby from the first ultrasound. I'm happy to report there's only one baby and it has a heartbeat. Wonderful! xoxo

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